the past two days i have done almost absolutely nothing. i say almost because i feel as though constantly consuming vitamin c, zinc, echinacea tea (among an assortment of other beverages pumped with health), deliciously nutritious foods, sleeping, and only breathing properly humidified air, all fall under the category of doing something. i'm determined to beat this cold before it has the best of me. i will not let thanksgiving be a bust.
at the same time, i'm battling the ever-wicked winter blues. it always comes a bit early for me. so yesterday and today i've given a real try in shedding my depression, whilst getting rid of this cold. two birds with one stone, if you will. a lavender candle, a bath, a set of clean bed linens, a clean room, and a parks and rec marathon later and i pretty much feel the same. i'm sick of feeling like a lifeless lame-ass all the time.
didn't help i had a snow dream last night, that only reminded me of an attributing factor to my clusterfuck of a mind. i never really put much faith into dream interpretation dictionaries since i feel it's all about personal perception. but just out of curiosity i looked up snow-
Psychological Meaning: Snow can indicate frozen emotions but can also symbolise transformation and purification. Clean pure snow can represent a fresh start. Melting snow can indicate that obstacles and fears are dissolving whereas an avalanche of snow can indicate that you fear being overwhelmed by emotions that have been held in check for too long. Are you ‘cold’ and lacking warmth?
Mystical Meaning: To dream of watching falling snow indicates that a letter will arrive shortly. Some superstitions claim it will be from the person you will marry. The truth is that most oracles consider this dream to be one of good luck.
wtf?
note to self- never feel any sort of hope for something as impossible as an awkward long distance relationship ever again. the fact that i can't seem to get over it makes it that much worse. on the plus side, soon enough i'll be in macerata, where it rarely snows. so, eat that discouraging dream interpretation. eat that.
run run run away.
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